Is this as good as it gets? Should I be satisfied my life as it is now? And sail into the sunset? Quick relationships, quick marriages, divorces, only to land in the same position alone, but this time emotionally scarred and with major financial impact. Is it worth the effort since the consequences of failure are high for me personally and for my relationship with my children, family and friends the few I have? Most men think they can duplicate what they had.
We just need a woman who can do all the domestic activity, social scheduling, entertaining, ego stroking and allow us to get on with the difficult parts of life: This should be easy, there are loads of woman looking for a guy like me! This is not as easy as most guys make it sound when discussing the subject in the pub. Women are human beings with their own thoughts, ideas, expectations, and desires of their own. They are not looking for a lazy guy who needs a slave.
They have probably had one already. So the primary objective of most men is to completely replicate the previous relationship. On average, most men do not work as hard on relationships as women, thus, to do the extra work that is necessary can become a major issue.
Nevertheless, the alternative is not good. I met a man who was very quiet, lonely and never went out to meet family or friends after his wife died. In a short time after her death, he died, basically from self-neglect. He could not handle the loneliness and the loss of companionship. I spoke to people who knew him before she died. They remembered him as a very proud, self-confident, haughty person who was very energetic. A person whom you would think did not need anybody.
A marriage -bad, good or excellent-is a relationship of extreme intimacy. It is not only a sexual relationship but a complete integration or blending of mind, mood, knowledge, security, comfort level, communication verbal and non-verbal until the two become one.
The probability of obtaining the same relationship again is impossible. Just because someone meets the basic requirements, social, moral, background, education, etc. I get a laugh out of the ads for online dating. They do not know about the X factors in relationships. As I go down the road to being open to new relationships, hopefully one which will be permanent. If one does occur, it will not be the same as before. I will not be looking for the same as I do not think that it will work for either party.
I am a different person now and changing daily. My expectations and view of the world is changing. I have accepted that I am no longer in the parent role, as my children are now grown and are starting their own lives. Therefore, advice is given on request instead of parental edicts. My children are also changing, even though they do not notice it as much as I do. They are coming to terms with one parent alive and also beginning to accept that even these bonds with me will become looser.
This is natural and should occur. But they are now starting to exercise reverse parental control which will have to be taken into account in any new relationship I may have.
I think that if I am to be successful in a future relationship I will have to over communicate, go slowly and recognise that any new relationship must include acceptance of my spouse.
She will always be there, not as an adversary but as a positive person who would want the best for everybody. The trick is not to make her into the super mother which time often makes of people who have died. Then, she will truly be remembered. Even I will become a better person after I have departed. The thought of a new relationship is full of concerns, fears, risks, and fraught with dangers.
When we were young we never thought like this. If we did, we would never have met anybody. So my lack of experience is a problem and only time will tell. On that note… where is the nearest pet store?