He claimed that he simply doesn't feel the same way about me anymore. So we split up, but we didn't get a divorce because some complicated legal reason.
He ended up dating the girl he cheated on me with. The breakup for extremely hard for me. We've known each other since we were kids. He was my best friend and first of everything. I was hurting so much in the beginning, I felt that part of me died the moment he left me. I tried to be with other people but nothing feels the same.
There was always something missing, I just couldn't tell what it was. Until I recently slept with my ex husband's cousin! We were both drunk at the time. I initiated the kiss and he went along with it. Then one thing leads to another.
Afterwards, he felt really bad about it because "I'm his cousin's ex wife and his cousin is going to hate him. But I just can't stop thinking about it! It was the first time in a long time I've felt like I'm not a robot. For once I could feel something other than just pure physical contact. I want to sleep with him again but I dont know how to bring it up. Also, I'm not even sure if he remembers any of this OR that if this was just a one night stand for him.
Is it really wrong of me for wanting for this to happen again? What should I do now? To make things very clear for everyone commented: My ex is currently dating the girl he cheated on me with. He made it clear that there is no chance of us getting back together. I admit that I am very attracted to my ex's cousin. Not just sexually, but also the way we interact with each other.
I think about him quite often after what happened but it's really awkward for me to contact him. At this point in my life, I am not looking for a serious relationship or true love. I just want to be with someone that I am attracted to from time to time.
I want to feel comfortable sleeping with someone. I'm tired of feeling numb, indifferent, or disgusted during sex after the breakup. Cheating ex husband broke my heart. I slept with his cousin and I am attracted to him. Am I wrong for doing that? I want to sleep with him again, what should I do?