For five years, I ached for her trust in me, but she would never fully offer it. Early in our relationship, before we had even agreed on being monogamous, she caught me in a lie which antagonized her betrayal wound. My lie set fire to her toxic waste pond. Disregarding what would soon become a raging hellfire, we moved in together.
But without trust, neither one of us allowed ourselves to be truly vulnerable with each other. Neither of us felt safe to surrender to the blissful exchange of love energy that flows between two people in a healthy intimacy, which requires vulnerability.
She gave me her body during sex, but often withheld her true heart. We looked sexy together on the outside, and we had physical pleasure, but we felt awful in our depths. Stepping fully into the brilliance of you who are, mind, body, heart and soul, in this very moment. She was persistently afraid I would abandon her, so she held back the gift of her trust and her full love. I was persistently frustrated by her attempts to control me, so I resisted completely cherishing her and showing up for her in countless ways.
We were often either dodging blame or flinging it at each other like monkey feces. She is letting go of worry, allowing herself to open and soften any walls around her sensual, feeling heart. She melts into vulnerability and offers the expression of her true self in this moment. I also trust that you will be a place of steadfast strength I can anchor to when I might otherwise be overcome by the turbulent winds of this ever-changing moment.
I offer my real self to you, relaxed and vulnerable, confident that your best self will keep me safe as I do. Whether the warm glow emanating from her lit-up eyes, the sensual swing in her confident step or the raw unbridled truth in her authentic sharing, her femininity is wildly attractive to many men.
It even compels men to step deeper into their own innate masculinity. In other words, these three words can inspire a man to claim his birthright as a responsible, loving, ethical being who champions all life and passionately serves the greater good. And every man wants to make his woman proud of him. Damn, that would be one sexy planet!